I surrender the guards at the entrance of my heart.
I kiss them on the forehead lightly and whisper to them "Go rest. It is time, you have worked hard and diligently to protect the thing I treasure the most".
They give me the keys and smile.
I open the doors and let all the light out.
~Xochitl Ashe 2013©
-- photo by Karolina Daria
When I was 16 years old I was initiated into the medicine ways of my ancestors.
I had my first ceremony with a medicine that my dad uses as he is a guide, a road man, medicine man in the wixárikar tradition of Mexico. My ceremony consisted of being alone. My beloved father set a sacred space so I could be safe and have everything I needed. It was a room on the roof of our house. Our family altar and "despacho", a place where our whole family would meditate, pray and do ceremony.
I was afraid, as I had never taken the medicine before and I knew I would be showed in to worlds that I would have only dreamed about. I would be afraid to take the medicine with a group, so alone brought up for me every fear imaginable. I had never been in a ceremony where I had to be all by myself. I really never had liked to be by my self in life. I was scared of many things but one of the fears that was very obvious to my father as I was in the midst of being a teenager was: being alone. I always needed the company of others to feel safe in my world. I needed to be liked and approved by people around me.
I was resisting doing my ceremony as it was my introduction to my path as a Medicine woman. My father who is my guide, teacher, and best friend hugged me, cleaned me with Coppal incense, eagle feathers and blessed the medicine. He asked that I may be guided and protected in to my alonenes so I could understand it and have it be a friend and place to feel at home. I started crying as he was leaving but I stayed strong covered myself with my blankets and tasted the bitter taste of the medicine.
I could write a whole book about what I learned that night. The "secrets" that were revealed as the veil between what we think "reality" is and what it really is. My world was never the same, god was talking to me and I heard her everywhere in everything.
I learned from being alone with the guidance of the medicine how necessary it is for our spirit to take the time to be by ourselves. Alone time in life, meditation, ceremony in order to listen to the wisdom that is always present. The TRUTH is that we are never alone, there is love always present. This love can be found in a rock, plant, dog, another person, even an empty room if it was at some point filled with the laughter of children and still has that energy.
Love is in the air we breath, our heart beat, the blink of our eyes. This energy even when you feel all alone with not a soul to call your friend is always whispering "I love you" as you inhale the air it provided for you to be alive.
Ahhhhh that was 20 years ago and I had to remember this ceremony today as I did ceremony by myself. I am glad I took this day to go deep in to me. All the answers were given effortlessly. I feel my joy, I feel the gratitude for this love that always wants to love us up and remind us how bad ass POWERFUL, DIVINE and BEAUTIFUL we are.
We must be alone in our aloneness to understand that we are NEVER alone. Life is a constant paradox: you must learn to be alone in order to know you are always connected.
In the midst of organizing my office and I found this POWERFUL prayer for dealing with relationships that are in conflict:
Fist see them happy and surrounded by loving healing light, visualize their higher self.
Then you say to them:
"I forgive you completely and freely. I release you and let you go. As far as I am concerned the incident that happened between us, is finished forever. I wish the best for you. I wish for you the highest good. I hold you in light and I am FREE and you are FREE and all again is well between us. PEACE BE WITH YOU"
It is a new day!!!
The whole earth is rejoicing and dancing because you are here. Pachamama, Mother earth fully supports you as your feet touch her with your every step. The trees whisper they love you with the oxygen that you breathe in. The animals have held council all night to see who will guide you. It seems like a hawk will reassure you are on the right path and a hummingbird will remind you to be tender with your heart.
Will you remember that this whole existence has been orchestrating a celebration for your highest good?
Will you stop and smell the flowers that will remind you of who you are as their scent heals all past heartbreak?
All you need to do is BE with nature.
Be grateful for all that is here for you!!!
How can it not be all beauty when we all are Mother Earth's favorite child?
~ Xochitl Ashe 2013 ©
Gratitude will create the jam that the universe will have on replay on her ipod and will dance to for eternity!
What will you create today? As your eyes open to this day be aware of the thoughts that you generate. You are beyond powerful and are creating a universe to step in to with the vibration of your heart. Your thoughts and feelings create your vibration. Music is sound vibration so it helps to think of it this way: you are like a musical instrument playing songs that the universe will respond to. Will the universe get down and breakdance, salsa, shake its booty to your song? If not, are you playing a song that the universe will not dance to but instead sit down because the beat is not that great and its actually a sad song?
Choose to play some good music with your life!
It is an exciting world if you are having beautiful thoughts. You are the DJ of the dance floor of your life. Remember, there is more light than dark (just that the media is controlled by low vibrations so it appears that this is not the reality). Remember who you are! You are beautiful, magical, an iridescent unique expression of God, source energy, the universe.
Choose to be grateful for all the qualities in yourself that make you who you are. Be thankful your health, your wealth (not just measured by a bank account) your family, your community, and your eyes to see this. Choose gratitude for the things that are coming in the future. Gratitude will create the jam that the universe will have on replay on her ipod and will dance to for eternity!
~Xochitl Ashe 2013 ©
When a woman is ready to step in to her throne as a Queen and be the Divine Feminine fully expressed these are some of the insights that are revealed:
1) She loves and celebrates herself completely and from this place she is in the service to the whole.
2)She is guided by her heart and her intuition. She honors her emotions and knows that she is a sensitive being and her vulnerability is her strength.
3) To sit in her throne could sometimes be challenging or exciting, it is in her choosing. Who she was before is dying to birth a new conscious way of loving herself and others like never before. It is Blissful to surrender to herself and who she truly is.
4) She can no longer bend for anyone or anything that is not for her highest good, she sits powerfully in who she truly is and has the love and humility to expand.
5)She sees and honors all women as Queens even if they forgot about their true identity. She values sisterhood and is in constant celebration of this unity. She is an inspiration and guide for women to remember they are Queens.
6) She is irresistible at every moment (and she knows it). She is always an invitation to love. She is clear that she no longer goes looking for love or approval outside herself, but she creates it/allows it. The Queen knows that she is the SOURCE, the infinite fountain of this most precious elixir. She is the celebration they are all coming to.
7) When she decides to allow a partner into her life she ONLY chooses her equal. This divine partner recognizes her as a Queen and bows to her in love, devotion and commitment. Together they are of service to their highest good, the highest good of the partnership and the community.
Xochitl Ashe © 2012
A little something from the archives to remember to live by today : )
" A smart man does not choose the most beautiful woman in the world, but chooses the woman who can make his world the most beautiful." ~Unknown.
Whatever you want in this world requires a part of you to change in order to allow it in your life. You can not have "it" from where you are right now otherwise "it" would already be yours. You must give what you are wanting to have. Sometimes the giving is uncomfortable because it stretches us in ways that we have not experienced before. Stay true to you as this is your highest calling. Trust that by going beyond your past limitations in order to give, you are already making way for "it" to easily and effortlessly arrive. It is this journey of envisioning "it", then taking on the change needed that we become more of who we really are. We are magnificent divine beings worthy of all our dreams being realized. The universe can't wait for you to know your worth so you can have it all.